I hate self-harm. A lot. I used to have a girl bestfriend who cuts a lot. I always tried to stop her, she ended up doing so when I’m not with her. After so many months, I got tired of stopping her cause I felt like she doesn’t care about what I’m saying anymore. Her blade just got deeper and one night I called her, and left her a message cause I was worried. She always texts me a goodnight before she sleeps. That night, she didn’t. I called and left her a message, but I felt like it wasn’t enough so I went to her house and found her mom crying in the living room. Her mom and dad fights all day and all night. I always wanted her to sleep over so she wouldn’t hear them, but her father refused to allow her. I knocked and went straight to her room. It was locked so I asked for the key from her mom. There, I saw her lying down peacefully. When I went to the side where she was facing, her hands were shown up, It was bleeding. And not just normal bleeding. There were lots of blood that you can ever imagine. I panicked and ran to her, I never cried like that in my life. She was my bestest friend.

Now my sister cuts too but I slap her everytime she does. Even though I hate hitting her, it’s the only thing stopping her. Don’t think of me as a bad brother, I tried stopping her with my words only, she didn’t care. So I hit her cause I was hurt when I saw her hands with cuts.

Now if you’re thinking of cutting, PLEASE, I beg of you, do NOT. You’re one step closer to committing suicide. That’s not a good thing. Even if you feel like, it’s the only thing that could ease the pain, there are lot more others that could do that. Please stop looking back at those things that could possibly hurt you or turn you to this cutting psycho. You’re more of that, you’re beautiful. 

Hear me once, ALWAYS draw a butterfly, a ladybug, whatever you want that’s living on your wrist or the places where you usually cut. Name it TRISTAN. That’s my name. or someone you care about a lot. EVERYTIME you cut, you’ll be hurting me or that person. Now you wouldn’t want that, would you? Please do it. That’s the best way for me to stop you from self-harm. I love you.